I work for an information technology firm and I must confess I am having pretty much a smooth ride so far. I have definitely been favoured by god — to earn well and be comfortable.
But at some point comes the realisation that profession for me has just been a false proclamation to dignify my existence. I have always questioned myself how much I have stretched myself away from my passion. I took a master’s in mathematics to pursue a doctorate in my specialisation but ended up in a largely unrelated job through the campus placement process.
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Five years have gone by in the blink of an eye. The professional in me has become so obscured with internal conflicts surrounding my mind. My fondness for my profession has faded. It is hard to digest the truth that I have been doing something secondary in terms of my interest. An affair with something that has not interested you by heart and breath has little to offer to your fascination. It often raises an internal monologue: is this what I wanted to do with my life?
I am sure many would ponder much as they are faced with this kind of a predicament, but the chances of their doing anything to change the situation are remote as they would have already found a rhythm in the current space. As humans we always face an initial inertial force that creeps in and we keep living life without even thinking about the depth of uncertainty and negligence we have imposed on our own life. If I were given a second chance to opt for a job, I would have chosen something to do with mathematics or language skills. I would then have been gratified about my occupation.
I now have the feeling that I have just blindly walked wherever destiny took me. And I’ve been quite calm with the proceedings since I realised I am going to earn my own bread, thereby securing financial risks. It is just too late now to fulfill my aspirations for a dream job as I am earning quite a handful and supporting the family with what I have. Drifting away from all this at this stage will disturb the harmony not just within me but also my family because I would have to start my pursuit from scratch with their involvement and support to a large extent.
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This is written as a note of caution to all youngsters who are at the stage of starting a career. Be choosy about the future and do not pick the offer that is soft-earned. A second thought before you actually move forward would be skewing you up to places that were your dreams. I am sure you would not have to one day write a message expressing disappointment over having to lead a life that is miles away from your real passion.
Just once disagree with fate and give a chance for your conscience to decide on the direction you want to flow. Nodding heads to the obvious would make you just another horse with blinkers, like me, too late to switch gears when you feel life is just monotonous.
I am sure a day might come in the near future where every child is going to hard-earn their fantasy jobs before they would succumb to financial pressures. I have had my share of it, so I often would walk up to children to remind them about discovering their dormant desires before they choose careers for themselves.
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