Reading the note written by Mondi Rushikeshwari, a first-year student of ANU College of Architecture and Planning, before commiting suicide three days ago, is a wrenching experience.
Dated July 15, 2015, she titled it ‘My Last Note’: “Depression is not a sign of weakness, it means u stayed strong for a long time. I love u mom, I love u DAD, try to donate my organs if they are in good condition.’’
The student’s diary, accessed by
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The entries are full of the love and affection she had for her parents.
``I like to laugh and be happy, but my cheerful nature has led to a problem,’’ begins the note. She went on to say that how her father loved her and how much she loved architecture.
``I left my home in Warangal to study in ANU but some of my seniors try to pull me away from studies and draw me into love. After I had denied their advances, they spread malicious rumours about me. Whenever I hear about those rumours, the smile on my face disappeared and I used to cry,’’ she wrote.
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Rushikeswari goes on to say she has never hidden anything from her father. ``Nanna, I have never hidden anything from you but here I am hiding this from you after thinking about you. Whenever I hide these things from you, I experienced suffering and trauma.’’
Rushikeshwari’s diary reveals as a girl with a deeply sensitive and thoughtful nature